My breakup

I'm feeling good this morning, I guess it's because I finally got enough rest. I usually stay up all night chatting online with my boyfriend, but last night we got into a big arguement and broke up. I should be sad and depressed today, but I'm not. I'm tired of his little selfish ways he has at times. He accuses me of being the bad one, but I think that it's him that needs the fixing. I still have mad love for him though. I just need for him to stop acting like he is the boss. My mom always raised me to speak what I feel is right. When I tell him what I think about something, he gets mad and swears that it's just another man. I would never cheat on him, and I don't know why he even bring things up like that. I would break up with him before I cheated on him. I wish I could just call him and we make up. But unfortunately my pride won't let me. He has to learn that this is not a game. I am not going to be nobody's fool. I know that he loves me, but it's hard enought that he is overseas. I can't have him over in England acting foolish. He told me right before we got offline, that he loved me and but I have to work on my attitude. He told me to let him know when I'm ready to be with him and him only. I can't believe this dude sometimes. Loving someone is hard.

Im So Sick

I feel so terrible this morning. I went to bed extra late trying to study for my Sociology test that I have today and talk on the phone with my boyfriend at the same time. I woke up with strep throat and I started not to attend class today, but I thought I would miss out on something important on my research paper. I'm glad I attended class today because my professor explained to us how to do a annotated bibliography, even though I have done one before. Imagine having a cold and having bad allergies. I feel terrible. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I hope I start to feeling much better. My nose is running and I'm tired of blowing them and I'm tired of my throat itching and my eyes being irritated. I just need to go home and get in my bed and try to relax. I've already taken some tylenol cold medicine but it doesn't seem to be working. I need some antibiotics but I can't take them with the pills that I am on. I hate being sick, I think I have a low ammune system but I'm not sure. The reason why I say that is because I'm always getting sick. It seems like if a person coughs next to me then I'm coughing the next second. I need to start drinking orange juice more often. I need that vitamin C.

MY EX

On last week, I received a text message from my ex asking me what would I say if he was to ask me could we get back together. Oh my God, I couldn't believe it. Then he told me that he was still in love with me and didn't want to be with no one else. He said he realized how much he loved and missed me the day he seen me when he was home on leave. He's military too just like my boyfriend. This shocked me because I thought that he had moved on and was happy where he was. Obviously I was wrong. Apparently him and his girlfriend broke up and has nothing in common. I was with my ex for 5 years and I use to think that he was going to be my soul mate. I'm starting to believe the saying that If two people were meant to be together then they'll come back to each other. I told him that if he would of told me that a year ago, he would of made me the happiest girl alive. Now that I'm with Mitchell it's too late. I'm too deeply in love to leave my boyfriend. I use to be like this about him, but that all changed when he moved and when I met Mitchell.

Wednesday Morning

It's eight o'clcock in the morning and I am exhausted as usual. I had a long night last night on the internet chatting with my boyfriend overseas. We didn't get off the internet til three this morning. We talking about our engagement and actually planned our wedding. Well at least we got the wedding party out the way. May isn't getting here fast enough. I am so ready to leave for England. My fiance and I haven't decided on whether we wanted to get married home or overseas yet. I want it at home though, although it may be over there with him. It just depends on how everything goes I guess. Our anniversary was on the 16th and he send me a beautiful necklace. It has our names engraved on it. I miss him so much. I just wish sometimes he wasn't in the service. I want us to be together everyday. My morning started off pretty well this morning. My fiance called me and told me he loved me and that he would call me later on. That just made my whole morning. Now I'm sitting in class listening to my professor explain what we need to be doing with our research paper. So I'm going to end this blog because I need to be paying close attention.

It's Wednesday morning and I am sitting in class freezing to death. I don't know why I chose eight o'clock classes, knowing I hate to wake up. I especially hate to wake up in the cold. I got my first paper back and I think I did pretty well. I could of done a lot better but I have time to improve my grade. I love my English professor, she is very nice and is not like most tough and stubborn teachers. She actually gives us a break and doesn't pile up lots of work for us to do. I hope I will be able to have her again for English 1102. They rumor is that 1101 is the hardest class you will ever take in college. I don't know how true that is since I'm taking statistics. Statistics is an interesting subject, hard but interesting. I hope I make at least an "B" in my statistics class. Dr. Trimboli is a great professor and has his PHD in math. He explains the work really well and if you can't understand it, it is not his fault. When you have a subject as hard as statistics, you need to do extra practice and go see the tutors for additional help.

Missing my Grandmom and Aunt

I have a very small family. My immediate family consists of 5, but I have my grandmom and a aunt that I was really close too that just recently passed. We had a very special bond. They lived together all their life and I stayed with them on and off. They were my mother's mom and my mother's only sister. Imagine how their death made us feel. I miss the days my grandmom would call my cell phone and tell me how she needed to go to the grocery store. She was the sweetest lady I ever known. She cooked us breakfast every morning as long as I could remember. She didn't believe in leaving the house without it. I remember when she use to rub my back and sing me to sleep. I couldn't possibly tell of how much I miss her and tell of all the memories we share. My aunt was the funniest person ever. She was forever laughing and telling jokes. She was the strongest of the family. Everyone depended on her to make decisions. She was definitely the ring leader. She didn't care about spending money and was a very christian women. She have 2 kids and they are my heart. One is in prison and the other is doing really well. I miss them so much but I know God's will has to be done. May they rest in peace!

My BFF Birthday Party

My best friend Tyesha turned 20. Earlier that day, Mitchell and I had went and took portraits. After that, I went to help my friend set up for the party with the music and decorations. There was a couple of people already there when I arrived. I immediately started to help prepare the food when I got there. I fried some chicken wings and dipped them in some buffalo wing sauce. After that I fixed them up on this nice platter with ranch dipping sauce. I had a couple of drinks and when I began to feel the tingle, I got up and danced. There was this older guy who kept following me around and kept talking to me about the weirdest things. I began to get scarred because of the rumors that he was a rapest. I called my boyfriend and he was there within 10 minutes. He was so mad that I couldn't enjoy my own friend's party because of this old stalker guy. When my boyfriend arrived I had got into my car and locked the doors. My boyfriend went on the inside and began to talk with my BFF. I regained my comfort and went back inside. The older man got the idea that my boyfriend was going to beat him up if he didn't leave me alone. From then on, I had a great time and I am so happy that my BFF did too!

Snow Day

When I woke up on Sunday, I was amazed. I looked out the window and I couldn't believe it. It was snowing and actually had begun to stick. My house was so cold and to make matters worse, I didn't have my man there to keep me warm. I turned the heat up high so it could get warmer a little faster. My friend had spent the night with me that previous night and I had to take her home the minute after we had discovered it was snowing and that it was super cold. I had to go to work Sunday as well. When I got to work, there was no customers outside and it stayed that way for almost the whole day. My co-workers and I enjoyed looking out the window at the snow. We actually wanted to go out and play in it so bad, but we were on the clock and it would be kind of embarassing for adults to be seen playing in snow anyway. Who ever would of thought it would snow in Georgia in March? One day it was 70 degrees, the next it rained all day, and then the snow came. The schools were even canceled Monday because of the inclement weather. I slept the whole day, and it was actually nice outside. It was cold, but it was bearable. I wish we could have more snow days!

My trip

It's Tuesday night and all I can think about is my trip to Atlanta that I am taking with my friends on the 2oth. It's friend Kazz's birthday and I am so excited. We plan on doing a lot of shopping at all the different malls, flea markets, and department stores. When we first arrive in Atlanta we will probably go eat at a big restaurant and just laugh, talk, and have fun. After that, it'll be time to check in at our suite that we have reserved. From there we will probably just hang out in the room and talk about guys and life and how it has been treating us. Later on, we plan on playing dress up and take a lot of portraits to go on myspace and just share with our families. We also plan to do a lot of clubing. We will probably party til 5 the next morning! When we get back, it's sleep time. I know most of us will be drunk, but that's part of a 21 year olds life! We also plan on going to the skating rink and to the movies. I am so ready for these 2 weeks to be up. I've already started packing my bags and I'm going to get my hair and nails next week. It's party time.