Missing Mitchell!

It's so hard not being able to see my boyfriend when I want too. I miss him so much. I miss the way he used to look at me, the way he smiled, his laugh, his walk, his touch, his stubbornness, his arguements, and more importantly, the way he was always there when I needed him. I'm driving myself crazy just by thinking about him. His birthday is March 6 and I'm so mad that I won't be able to be there with him. I really don't like the military anymore because they took my baby away from me. I sent him a birthday gift through the mail. It'll take a couple of days for him to get it, I just hope it won't be late. If I had one wish it would be to let Mitchell come home for a couple of months and then let him go back and continue to fight for our country. I know this is something that I have to deal with if I'm going to marry a military man. Hey this will be my military life. I don't know how to deal with all the traveling and going without him seeing me and the kids for long time periods at the time. I love him to death though. If that's what I have to do in order to be with him then that's what I'm going to do. At least I will have him to myself when he is retired. In May they will be sending him out to the desert and I won't be able to talk with him at all then. He says he will be out there two months. That means he will miss my birthday, which is in July. This whole military thing stinks. I can't let him see me this angry with his career because he loves his job dearly.